TOLD you

Who should you vote for?

John McCain				42
Barack Obama	-30

You expected: John McCain
Your recommendation: John McCain

Party: Republican
Born: 1936, Coco Solo Air Base, Panama Canal Zone
Family: Married twice with seven children (two adopted)
Career: US Navy, Captain; Vice President of Public Relations, Anheuser-Busch beer distributorship.
Political career: US House of Representatives from Arizona's 1st congressional district, 1983-7; Incumbent Senior United States Senator from Arizona since 1987; former Chairman of the Senate Committee of Commerce and Senate Committee on Indian Affairs; Incumbent Ranking Minority Member of the Senate Committee on Armed Services
Hot topic: Iraq War
Did you know? Was a lightweight boxer in his youth
Supported by: Curt Schilling

Long time, kinda...?

Well, the title obviously tells what's up.

BUT andywayz, things have been pretty great lately:

+ School's alright.

+ Boyfriend's perfect.

+ Parent's are ehhhh.

+ Brother FINALLY moved out!! (zomgwtf!?!)

+ Hanson concert was UH-mazin'!

+ Boyfriend's perfect.

+ Saw Daniel this weekend!

+ Going to make a trip to see Samantha soon!

+ Holiday hours at Cache!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Now the cons...:

- School's alright in the fact that I don't really know how I'm doing in Mass Comms

- I have no idea where my life's headed.

- My dad continues to make me feel stupid, even though he's the idiot.

- I really cannot stand negative people, their attitudes and personalities rub off on me, and I turn into this really negative Jennifer, and people notice, and call me out on it, and I hate it.

- My pumpkin doesn't look like Hellboy :(  --

All of that aside (impossible, I know) I couldn't ask for anything more. I'm going to Tuscaloosa this Friday for Morgan's infamous Halloween party...zomg. Don't really know if I'm going to dress up or not, just really don't have the urge to like I did two weeks ago, but oh weeeeeell. I carved a pumpkin (with Bubbas) all by myself, FREEHANDED, cause I'm rad like that. And it turned out, amazing.

I know this is going to get a reaction when I say this but I think that Obama will be the end of the USA. I'm really starting to see why he's scary to a lot of people. THAT being said, I don't really like McCain either, but I believe he's the lesser of two evils. Maybe that's because my dad makes a lot of money, or maybe it's because I'm in a military family, or maybe it's cause I have morals and values, I mean wtf who knows?

Sigh, back to school we go!

sometimes

You know sometimes when you make stupid decisions and you feel guilty, and you feel like an idiot, and then you take a step back and realize that there's nothing to worry about, and that you're not so much of an idiot? Well I feel like that for some reason. I don't really get why exactly, but I'm sure I'll know soon. Things have been going alright here lately, I'm really more so ready to just move on from all the stupidity that is myself. I know that's a hateful thing to say about one's self, but whatevski.

Fact of the matter is, is that I don't know anything. I don't really know myself as well as I thought I did, never thought it'd come to this, but it has. I kinda feel like I'm doing all the wrong things, and that's making matters worse for me. And I know a lot of that comes from not being myself anymore. I hate that the most about myself. I wish I could just be silly and carefree Jennifer again. But something inside me won't allow it. And that's starting to get VERY irritating. I miss my friends, all of them. Specifically those in Tuscaloosa, I feel a lot better about myself when I'm around them. Ben and Liz mainly.

Honestly, the others aren't really anything but matter now, I know that's awful but it's true. I've never really had friends that I thought would stand up for me no matter what, but Ben and Liz really are. Even though we don't see each other a lot, or talk a lot, it's still known that put either one beside me and not only will we have a good time, but we'll make sure everybody knows. I miss being social, yeah, but then on the other hand it's exhausting to me. I have this facade of a girl that I wear to make myself feel more confident. And we all know mixing alcohol in with that just maybe takes that girl a little over the edge.

That's the last thing I want to do is feel fake, or feel like I haven't shown my true-self. I sit here with my cellphone in hand and text people, and the one's who don't respond sadly I delete from my phone (terrible, blahblahblah) but hey, it makes me feel better at least. I just wish I had somebody closer to home, Grey's here, Jennifer's here, but Jennifer I never really get to see, actually ever, and when I do see her, it's brief (which pisses me off, not at her, but at the fact that that happens.). And when is it that I'll actually be able to visit everybody? I feel like such a bitch when I have to say "no, I can't this weekend, I don't have the money" or "nah, can't this time, sorry!". I mean what kind of friend am I? No wonder people don't respond to texts or calls.

I just feel worthless all over again, and it's all because of me. You didn't ask, but I did tell, so I'm voting for John McCain, if I vote at all. I dunno what to say now. I like banana smoothies, Grey makes good ones.

Ryan Star

We were only kids,

we ran like water.

Your dad said,

stay away from my daughter.

The sun was coming down when I said,

can't you just believe?

And if you wait for me,

I'll be the light in the dark if you lose your way.

And if you wait for me,

I'll be your voice when you don't know what to say.

I'll be your shelter,

I'll be your fate.

I'll be forever,

wait for me.

I'll be the last train,

I'll be the last train home.

never in my life...

did I think that it'd be like this.

that I'd fall so hard for somebody.

that they'd take me on a journey this long.

some of it hard.

some of it easy.

and never in a million years would I have said

"he's the one" about that guy you were that night.

but he we are, in all our glory.

you really have changed yourself.

and you've changed me.

I love you, no matter what, you get it...right?

:)

so i have this plan.

and this plan is going to sabotage my relationship with my parents

(most likely)

because it involves inking my body.

(same font)

on my wrist!!!

• It means "I have hope" in isiZulu or Zulu (a language spoken in southern Africa)
• YES, the inspiration is Hanson.
• I think I have found what I'm supposed to do. :)
• And yes I think that it is necessary.

To follow up on what I'm supposed to do, visit here!!

my boyfriend's better than yours (in general)

SO.

The Hanson concert was last night. (sososososo much fun!!!!!)

The Veronicas opened. (lesbian rock/screamo)

Before them was...whocaresreally? (they were geigh)

BUT I had such a good time!!!

And Nathan just had fun seeing me so happy.

:)

IlyB.

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