Like I said, I don't know where anything in my life is going, and sometimes I really wonder if my decisions are right, or if everything will pan out the way I want it to. But there's no way to test that, without experimenting...so I guess I will! Love is something that is always ever present in my life, whether it's from my parents, God, a boyfriend, family, or pets. So when it's challenged by something or somebody I second guess myself. I hate doing this because:
1) I don't want to disappoint anybody.
2) I don't want to hurt somebody.
3) I don't want to challenge my future.
But like I said before, you never know...The only thing I can depend on is that my decision making process won't ruin my future. But things happen for a reason. That is honestly what I live by. So if things aren't meant to be, whether it's now or ever, then so be it. But I don't think I can live with that, but I will try my hardest to learn from it.
That being said, school is something that's gearing me up to find the rest of my life. To be able to work two years, jump back into school (no problem), graduate, and find a job right after graduation would be incredible. I doubt it'll happen that way, but how righteous would that be?! That being said, I am needing to get a part time job, I just don't know where. I won't lie, I love love LOVE being able to have Friday through Sunday off, no worries. But I would love to be able to work again, mainly for a source of income. I need to do something with my time, for money, and for sanity, aaaand maybe for the stability of my family life....It's stressing me out, but I know it will work out fine, I just need to be more motivated about it.
Anyways, I'm going to the Birmingham Art Museum today! Get excited.
